Friday, September 22, 2017

Liar Liar Pants On Fire

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Wands/Spears

Ah, way more interesting than eight sticks flying...a sudden opportunity requiring quick decision. The myth of the White Hart surrounds the wedding of Arthur and Guinevere, and the massive chaos when hart, dogs, hunter, crashed though the room, and the fast decisions resulting.

I'm reminded by this myth to make snap decisions ethical. Gawain, Tors, and Pellinore didn't and the Round Table reputation for honor paid the price until things were set right.

I've said it before but I'm still ticked at myself for not refusing to make fake purchase orders for an employer in the 80s. Arguing isn't the same as refusing, not one bit.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Sweeping Change

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Death

Gwyn Ab Nudd is thought to have controlled weather with his horn, so augmenting sweeping change. His place in this myth is as hunter and pick-upper of the dead.

I see the Tower as lightening changes; heart attack, new baby, car wreck. Unless I'm literally dead I see the changes of the Death card as long term, seldom can we change a lifetime habits with lightening strikes.

"The second half of a man's life is made up of nothing but the habits he has acquired during the first half." ~ Fyodor Dostoevski 1821-1881

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Mantic

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ Temperance

A cauldron, head, and spring, all long thought of as sources of inspiration or prophecy.

What I had typed was "prophecy, if you believe in that sort of thing". Passive aggressive pout including sneer,  because I couldn't figure out how to use the word mantic.

It is easy to miss the moments that cry for temperance, because it feels good to blow off some steam. Except it doesn't make everyone feel better because there is always a target. Generally the next person you encounter.

A work in progress, that's me.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Precious

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 6 of Wands/Spears

I've been sitting here trying to think of anything I've done that could be termed well earned, caused change for the better, conquest and advancement.

I'm having trouble coming up with a 'win', probably because I don't have a competitive bone in my body. Hummm, Pretty exciting to get my lifetime key from weight watchers. But I continue to gain and lose the same 30 pounds over 5 year periods. Mastering clutch and stick was more an end to heart pounding terror rather than satisfaction. Carrying 8 dinner plates in one hand and arm was a pretty awesome skill.

I'm reminded by this card, not many of us have rated a victory parade with lots of horns and horses. What we can hold as precious are the successes personal to us. We just need to pull those memories forward more often. We are each so incredibly special in our own right.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Hello?

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 8 of Coins/Shields

Do you remember when it was bad news from the boss if you were caught on personal phone calls at work? I don't think I've been anywhere the last year or so and not seen employees doing their phone thing.

I remember the first five or six years of Rob working away from home all week we didn't touch bases because long distance call costs were outside our budget. It was miserable.

I'm reminded by this card our 'on all the time' lifestyle may have dulled our appreciation of the value of keeping in touch with family.

But I still wonder what the boss thinks and how it affects actual production time today.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Wonky Tools

Daily Draw: Legend the Arthurian Tarot ~ 3 of Wands/Spears

Subtitled the Horse Fair, this card speaks of fine tuning our knowledge and valuable resources.

As a quilter I use rotary cutters and acrylic rulers to cut my fabric. I noticed while building out my block the 2.5" corners were not aligning perfectly with the 6.5" block they were being set into. On examination my 2.5" ruler has slumped shoulders.

As an experienced quilter I can adjust each block as I sew along, my work is not lost. But as a knowledgeable quilter I am only as good as my tools. Replacement ruler is in order.

"When a work lifts your spirits and inspires bold and noble thoughts in you, do not look for any other standard to judge by: the work is good." ~ Jean de la Bruyere 1645-1696

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Revamp

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 4 of Coins

Looks like she has already moved her coins away from the door, put them on the fireplace, and thinking about the person who wants in, is taking them back down. Some common sense responsibility going on here.

If I could revamp schooling, I'd eliminate sports that use a small number of players, and add in yoga from year one. I'd have ongoing fiscal stewardship classes beginning year one. By middle school we'd know the name and location of every country in the world. Oh, basic four of coins practically, we hardly knew ye.

Friday, September 15, 2017

Blender

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Temperance/Sidhe

The Druidcraft name this card Fferyllt or Shaman
The Llewellyn calls her Keeper of the Well
Thoth based decks call her Art
Goddess Tarot calls her Yemana
There is also the Intergration, Mingler, Golden Flower...

She is represented by a giraffe pair, any number of anthropomorphied felines, tigers in surf, angels and faeries, a crane, rabbit, badger, ferret, multiple goddesses, Buddha, muscleman, triclops, figure hanging over the porcelain throne, stick figure...

All that said to say, we can find or seek temperance in any situation. Patience, communication, organization, blending, all in aid of balance.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Not My Bag

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Ace of Coins

This ace often rams worldly success down our throats, but financial gotta haves aren't the only point of this suit. I look at this card and run screaming from the room. I can't imagine giving up life force time to fill and keep this house or multiple houses. Not my bag. Not my idea of a home.

I'm reminded by this card of the 'dream'. Be careful what you dream for, you might get it. And once you got it, you have to care for it.

I'm cognizant that we have different Coin dreams and more power to each and every one of us. I worked hard all my life, today I value my time above all else.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

465,875

Daily Draw: Green Fairy Tarot ~ Knight of Wands

A new endeavor, based on experience already gained. I wish.

Another long post, gone into backspace land. I wonder how many words I've typed that I've untyped over the years? Better that way, they weren't worth reading.

If I average 125 words per post = 465,875 words, spread over 3727 pages. And I look forward to writing a new page tomorrow.  And it is ok if they don't make sense to anyone but me.

My mothers last coherent words: I think I remember something, but I don't know what it is.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Well

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ Death/Lord of Shadows

While my mind composed great words of keeping the life free of stagnation and brimming with fresh growth...I got sidetracked by wondering if ancient wells generally had the equivalent of a thatched roof.

I'm reminded by this card I have no fear of being dead, I will simply be gone. That is perfect for my needs. It is the dying that worries me. so many bad ways to go. Never mind, I'm here today and our own well is pumping along. As is life. Death can wait.

Monday, September 11, 2017

Local

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 2 of Wands

Hey, my favorite frogs with sticks!  And the rug weaver!  I know a number of small business owners who lead lives  of quiet desperation. On the other hand Kalama has a tattoo parlor now (where did that association come from I wonder) and what we seem to think will be a gift shop. They have gutted one of the prettiest buildings and have been working on it for at least six months. Who has pockets so deep and how will a 'stuff' shop survive here??

I'm reminded by this card, of the man at Baker Lumber who chided me  for getting part of my list at Home Depot.To me Home Depot employees are all local, so that counts as shopping local. As does Target and Safeway. Amazon is my last resort.

Let's retalk this in ten years, see if there are any local stores left.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Just A Word

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot ~ 2 of Cups

 There are hundreds of types of relationships with hundreds of descriptors in all cultures. Across the board, #1 for me is trust.

'Nuff said.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Without Forethought

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Knight of Coins;

Pranayama breath, before battle. But wait, the flail in his right hand was used for threshing wheat. He'd end up decommissioning his horse before he got to the fight. The stag on his helmet was associated with prudence.  Prudence in that 'it seemed like a cool idea at the time' for a hat design?

I'm reminded by this figure no matter how we plan an incursion we will have missed or forgotten or didn't take into account something important. Rethinking on the move is a specialty of this Knight because he has the resources to make it happen.

Friday, September 8, 2017

I Used To Think I Thought

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Priestess

If you were new to earth, pure, innocent, intuitive, what would you make of politics, religions, money? Slavery, war, addictions?

I'm reminded by this card it is difficult to uncolor our perceptions in order to achieve a new understanding. Many are based in childhood, influenced by environment or peers. We often don't recognize our leanings are not our own but inherited. We would be required to really bear down in order to sort out what we thought and what we think, in order to get distance between what we think we thought.

Our daily lives are all influenced by those six subjects. How often do you think what your thoughts really are? It is a small world, and our grain of sand counts.

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Coloring My World

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 9 of Cups

Color plays a part in understanding the decks designed by the Golden Dawn members. The Thoth has had dozens of printings since the first publishing in 1969. Look at the first row here on google images. Mine is scanned from my 'greenie' deck, the one I have in  my hand is from 2006. 2006 has
deep purple background
yellow lotus
golden water
violet cups
red vines.

I'm reminded by this card it isn't much wonder communication is a difficult task and it takes a lot of words and arm waving to get us to the lovely 9 of Cups position.

I also remember in the 8th grade saying as our teacher came in the room, "I feel studious today". I got 3 hacks with a big wooden paddle, in front of class, for whatever he thought I said. I never did find out. Words...can't live with them, can't shoot them.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Cheddar

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Ace of Cups

Reflections and refractions. (Snuffin) The hunt for good fly fishing holes around the state has offered me many beautiful reflections; still water + shore line, as above so below.
And in this rainy state, the combination of light and water brings the refractions of rainbows and I study how far the foot might be, pots of gold don't you know?

I'm reminded by this card the greatest beauty offered us is free for the taking. No human, even with the deepest of pockets can match it or gift it, it belongs to all of us.

Our moon and sun are both cheddar orange from the forest fire smoke. Nature offers beauty in all things.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Smoke 'em if you got 'em?

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ 8 of Wands

I got nothing from this card this morning. Two hours later I'm thinking it refers to this.

I expected to be on the road today, speeding down the freeway to the Rogue River area for some classes. Alas, forest fires are raging through the area.
Early in the week they said to bring eye drops, inhalers if you use them, masks if your lungs were already impacted...then yesterday they cancelled the whole works.

Ratsaroonie. So much for speeding anywhere. The areas we would normally visit since we are ready to go are all in the high 90's to 100 degrees, many of those are covered with smoke also.

I expect in the end I'll just be speeding upstairs to the quilt room. And life is good.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Makes Me Human

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Princess of Wands

Unconventional, impulsive, temperamental, bordering on unstable. (Snuffin)

I'm reminded by these words, I've been them. And worse. We all have. Most of us get good mannered out of it, or grow out of it. Those words are the double edge of court cards. Because Wands are the action, the push that gets things going, the ones working without the box of tradition. We are each all the colors in the carton, all the courts in the pack,  which makes us human, venerable, strong, alike.

Sunday, September 3, 2017

Wallow In The Loss

Daily Draw: Thoth Tarot ~ Moon

The dark side of the  moon.
Illusion and deception.
Where do the donations really go?
How are they applied once they get there?
FEMA is broke and has been for some time.
Flood insurance is tricksy, very expensive, and seldom pays out.

On the income producing side there are regular two hour bus tours of Hurricane Katrina (2005) abandoned New Orleans Ninth Ward neighborhoods.

I'm reminded by this card right and wrong walk narrow paths, side by side.

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Quench and Extinguish

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 8 of Coins

Dedicated to Water. Like fire it purifies and can bring a rebirth. Or, recent weeks from CNN news files:
  •  A massive mudslide sparked by heavy rains and flooding in an area of Freetown, Sierra Leone, has killed around 500 people and left hundreds more missing.
  • A third of Bangladesh is under water and the floods have so far claimed the lives of 142 people and impacted more than 8.5 million.
  • Ram Krishna Subedi, a Nepal Home Ministry spokesman, told CNN last month that at least 143 people have been killed since August 11. Nearly 80,000 houses have been damaged by flooding.
I'm reminded by this card of our own flood December 2015. Our police station is still in borrowed community space. Our library just reopened last month. Our city hall is now moored in an empty bank space.

Water at flood stage is catastrophic regardless of area. But the rebuilding relentlessly wears and appalls because the damage goes on and on long after the cameras move on to the next big thing.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Badgers With Thumbs

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 10 of Coins

Dedicated to Badger. Not native to my corner of the world. Everything I know about badgers comes from the 'big striped dog' citizens of Redwall.

In those stories they are the biggest creatures, fierce and loyal and deeply caring for their family and peripherals. The same could be said of humans, if you include thumbs, we are the biggest creatures in our world. Would that loyalty and care for each other was part of that. Other than looting, our best side comes out in time of need, as we see in hurricane Harvey and the aftermath sweeping the south. 10 of Coins caring in action.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Hippopotamus

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 7 of Cups

Dedicated to Salmon. I learned this week that hippopotamuses can't swim. Yet they are usually presented in water. They bob, they float, they can stay underwater for five minutes and even when they are sleeping their instinct kicks in and they automatically drift up to the top for air. The water life is because their skin is easily burned.

What does that have to do with salmon? Absolutely nothing, same as salmon and the seven of cups. The same as tarot has to do with Native American practices.  Nothing.

I'm spring cleaning the quilt room this week inspired by a broken shelf. Which always involves FlyLady principles. As the Salmon is shown swimming uphill, so does my effort to be lean clean uncluttered. Once salmon spawn they turn into redbacks and die. That is probably the way I'll eventually be found. All scraped up and smothered by the things that were whims.  Salmon. 7 of Cups. What can I say.

"It is a process" ~ Billy Crystal  Analyze That

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Which Fire?

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 9 of Coins

Dedicated to fire; death and rebirth, purify and destroy.

I'm reminded by this card of dementia, which does all four.
I wonder how many people in their 60's think memory fail means they have it? Rob and I watch each other. Watch word fail and word transpose and think we have it.

I wonder how many accept rebirth because they haven't lived with it 24/7. I choose destroy without second thought.

Monday, August 28, 2017

Two In Common

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 7 of Wands

This card is dedicated to knife and the simple truth of eat or be eaten. One truth that never varies.

And weather. One thing where common ground can be found regardless of race or creed.

"Whether the knife falls on the melon or the melon on the knife, the melon suffers." ~ African Proverb

Sunday, August 27, 2017

The Load

Daily Draw: Native American Tarot ~ 10 of Swords

This card is dedicated to the Puma and related to strength, mercy, and equilibrium. It seems to be chewing on the largest sword shard, while being  attended by four women. Lo Scarabeo deck, what can I say.

The tens are normally so final, perhaps it is asking if we are partial cause of someone else's epic life event. Is mercy too far outside our intent to be considered? What if we just walk away, let it go, we aren't responsible for anyone else's actions, and we don't have to be a part of their trigger. What can I set down today that I had no business loading on someone else?

My big brother comes to mind. Certainly unintended, whatever is wrong. I must think on this...for I surely love him.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Autumnal

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ 2 of Coins/Autumn

Here comes the man with all the news fit to print. Only problem is his ability to carry nuts is limited by his pennyfarthing bike. To him this is big news, to anyone watching it is funny news, to anyone of a serious nature, it isn't news at all. Every year his excitement is eclipsed by speed and gravity.

I'm reminded by this card to think things through. But it is a seriously boring life style..

Autumn came here this week. First cobweb across the face, first trace of pink on the Autumn Joy sedum. My favorite season.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Dumbass Market

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Devil/Goblin Market

Wow. Here is a concept that is easy to understated. Where the perfumes burn, the fabrics constrict, the fruits gag and choke. And every single thing we picked for ourselves. At the root, possessions and habits that shout dumbass the second we claim them.

I'm reminded by this market no one made me smoke that first cigarette. I did it because I was the only one in my group who didn't smoke. There you go...dumbass by choice.

If I started at seventeen, that first year was patchy, maybe one or two packs a week. After that I moved up to two packs a day. Until I was forty-five ish. That works out to 394,200 cigarettes. 394,200 times I poisoned people I knew with second hand smoke. Arrughhh...

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Mossflower

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Ace of Cups/Summer

A favorite summer day occupation, listening to Brian Jacques and the cast of creatures relate the stories of Redwall and the feasts therein. Summer recipes? An escape to real life.

Hotroot Sunsalad
Brockhall Badger Carrot Cakes
Great Hall Gooseberry Fool
Cheerful Churchmouse Cherry Crisp
Rosey's Jolly Raspberry Jelly Rock Cakes
Afternoon Tea Scones with Strawberry Jam and Cream
Squirrelmum's Blackberry and Apple Cake
Guosim Shrew Shortbread
Summer Strawberry Fizz
Summer Salad
Nutbread
Jess Squirrel's Celery with Pine Nuts
Raspberry cordial
Friar Hugo’s pièce de résistance: Grayling á la Redwall
Candied chestnuts

"In our imaginations we can go anywhere. Travel with me to Redwall in Mossflower country." ~ Brian Jacques 1939-2011

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Heart of Honey

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Strength/Fortitude

Strength. Move with the body
Fortitude. Move with the mind.
Does she raise bees or are the bees oblivious to her?

We used to raise bees, they were oblivious to us.
All gone now, hive fail. I still have two quarts of honey left.
I horde it, saved for pizza dough and seedy muffins only.

From my KalamaQuilts blog:
How much honey does a bee make in a day? Less than you would think. In the six week lifespan a honey bee produces less than a teaspoon. So if I got 4-1/2 gallons from our two hives, you tell me how many working bees we had. And you'll better understand why drones are kicked to the curb once the queen is fertilized.

Honey, natures gift from natures hardest workers.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Edifice

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ 5 of Cups/Summer

She has been so happy building her sand castle she was oblivious to the returning tide.

I'm reminded by this card we can focus on loss and disappointment and finishes, or focus on the good parts.
We had a Christmas family dinner at my nephews last winter, and I'm still smiling and laughing over the memories and I couldn't tell you a single food that was on the table.
I took some elderly women to see the sandcastle contest at Seaside. Couldn't tell you what any of the entries were, we were too busy laughing while pushing/dragging Veneita's wheel chair across the sand.

Little fairy, there is a lot more sand where that came from, choose another edifice and carry on.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Same Differences

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Worlds

Big peoples little peoples worlds. For some the twain never meet and it is just as well. We can't get along with people just like us for ten minutes, we'd flatten the fairy folk even quicker.

I'm reminded by this card, we come out of the chute fighting with our siblings and soon move on to bigger people. We judge first, then focus on the differences. The lights in the background are people lights. So close yet so far.

I wrote to our president this week. I didn't use bullet points like he prefers, but I kept it short and respectful. I would celebrate for days, nay years if he listened. So would you...so would the fairy folk.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Washed By The Sun

Daily Draw: Victorian Fairy Tarot ~ Wheel of Time

A title not commonly seen, but perfect for today.  I went to the family reunion yesterday, some of the family there I hadn't seen for ten or fifteen years. I think I can safely say the wheel of time has been kind to the Mallows. My dad had eight or nine sisters, all beautiful. Most are in their 70-80's now and kayak, bike, or walk the beach for miles...good stock there.

I'm reminded by this card to remember at any age, life is still what we make of it, and our faces and actions reflect that attitude. We can be a glade washed in sunshine or a closed and shuttered house.

Saturday, August 19, 2017

Stagnant

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Is/Isa

Like last Saturday, we are asked to let go of what we can no longer carry, to lay down the actions that do not serve us well, to stop tending what doesn't work.

You'd think it would be simple, just do it. But human nature is to cling to what we know. At its base it is probably some ancient instinct but today isn't ancient times and we have too much of what we don't need, do too much of what doesn't matter.

I'm going to drop my guard and go to a family reunion today.
In truth, it is pretty brave. But it shouldn't be and any reluctance is all on me.  I can do this...

Friday, August 18, 2017

Common Good

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 5 of Coins/Lughnasadh

Thinking about it doesn't cut it with this card. Teams should be organized and in the field pulling together.

I'm reminded by this card of the cracker jack team we had when I was living up north taking care of my father in law as he navigated through dementia. I have no idea how it crashed and burned but I miss that knowing everyone was on the same page working for the common good. It was uplifting and joyful and made for good memories during a very bad time.


Thursday, August 17, 2017

Special

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 10 of Coins/Lughnasadh

Ambitious, efficient, predictable, organized. The ten of conformity.

I'm reminded by this card, as much as we like to think of ourselves as unique, it just isn't happening. On the other hand, each of us is incredibly special and should treat ourselves as such. Without becoming 'precious'.

Work work work work work...Mel Brooks. again.


Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Eclipse Glasses

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Beltane

The vision to see everyday life can be fun, exciting, engaging, special.

I'm reminded by this card of Vision I picked up our free solar eclipse sunglasses are our little library yesterday, please do not look at the eclipse (fun, exciting, engaging, special!) without eye protection. Here in the US ask at your library, ''''''''/.8'''''''''''''''''''''  ]]]]]]]]]iiiiiii

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Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Belay That

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 5 of Swords/Samhain

In a tarot based on astrology and runes, this card celebrates the first week of December. Harvesting is now completed with the winter squash and nuts and mistletoe. The party season gets rolling, and hopes and expectations are high.

My curmudgeon side says put the brakes on expectations, you will only be disappointed. Belay That! I've been through times where something to look forward to is all that kept me carrying on. So carry on, celebrate, have a little fun. Have a lot of fun if you like, no harm in being happy. And happy with friends is even more fun. And I can guarantee, having fun alone builds on itself. Go for it. Give expectations a try.

Who is this person and what have they done with Sharyn? Yes, I can be cheerful if I put my mind to it...

Monday, August 14, 2017

Civilization

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ Os/Ansuz

What makes a civilization? Writing systems, architecture, sacred kingship.

I'm reminded by this card, to wonder what makes them go? Weather changes for one, which drive ancient civilizations ability to feed the population. All the civilized markers in the world can't be maintained on an empty stomach.

Where is the Life we have lost in living?
Where is the wisdom we have lost in knowledge?
Where is the knowledge we have lost in information?
~T.S. Eliot, The Rock, 1934

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Moved By Motion

Daily Draw: Runic Tarot ~ 5 of Wands/Imbolc

Not so much in retirement, but our working lives and childhood are much like the figures on this card. We are both the big figures making the motion and the small figures, moved by the motion.

It is raining today, first time in weeks. Yesterday's wind and today's wet have scoured out the air which has been filled with wildfire smoke. While we enjoy the fresh, clean view, we will also go to town and get a part of Rob's chain saw, he is in the middle of a winter wood job, sixty feet of fir. We will run by Bob's and find a new electric kettle. Small stuff, but our store is turning, and our purchases will give a little momentum to the small figures. I like this card, everyone involved.

"I know there is strength in the differences between us. I know there is comfort, where we overlap." ~ Ani DiFranco 1970-

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Put It Down

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Death

I like to think of this card as 'taking the cure'. We've finally convinced ourselves to drop the broken tools and put this life project down.

I'm reminded by this card it isn't possible to have every life tool, broken or used or pristine. Recognizing this state is the one tool we all have. It is done, fried, past it's pull by date, last year's prom date, someone else's problem.  Git along little doggies, there is more to life than this.


Friday, August 11, 2017

Savoring Abstinence

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ Hermit

Research Solitude Abstinence. Ouch, abstinence isn't a word that comes to mind in this nation of plenty. Or in my life.

I'm reminded by this skull, and early man in the socket, saying here ye will also be, to give a thought to what I could cut back on, in order to savor it all the more.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Epic

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 2 of Swords/Blood

"The swords, tied together by red represents every action tied to survival". Instead of a pretty maid holding two crossed swords (she must have wrists of steel) we have a figure making decisions left and right that affect every day going forward.

Learning to drive, finishing school, choice of friends, mate, environment, shelter, children, political bent, employment or non-employment...mostly I'm ok with my decisions, I'm not a dithering person. But a few that would have radically changed my life going forward? Rather than going from fathers house to husbands house, I wish I'd had lodgings on my own for awhile. Instead of 'going into' waitressing, I wish I'd gone to nursing school and then volunteered for 'Nam.

And I know I've said it before, but all my worst choices were made while drunk. There weren't so many, but they were epic...

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Spear-point

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 8 of Swords/Blood

A departure from the standard, this speaks of satisfaction, plenty, success, victory. It is a step through the looking glass to the other side of self imposed bondage and submission, but recognizes the great effort it takes to down a buffalo with a spear-point. Whatever form your 'buffalo in the room' might take.

I have a friend who has not been able to shuck off the bonds of a poverty stricken childhood. Her spear point took the form of buying. Too much. Now she has a house full of multiple dish sets, too much furniture, a million souvenir tee-shirts. And a sincere wish to divest it all, combined with an inability to do so.

I think my buffalo in the room has been a lack of self confidence. I've forced a million bold moves, but I think they've all come to naught because I fail in the ability to confidently move forward beyond that initial push. Maybe tomorrow....

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Recognition

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 8 of Cups/Soul

This figure is on an obsessive search governed by doubt.

I'm reminded by this card, if we don't know what we seek, it is doubtful we'll ever find it, because we won't recognize it when we get there.

Monday, August 7, 2017

No Healer Here

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 9 of Wands/Nature

Reaping the benefits.

I looks like he has made it home from the wars in fair shape, weapon a little worse for the wear. In truth there are always more weapons where that one came from, one of the main truths of war.

Rob was just home from two tours in 'Nam when I met him. Although I knew the war from the six o'clock news, although I knew many men who went, fought, some coming home in a box, it is only as I mature, and watch the same thing happening again, that I realize what a leap it is from desert or jungle to downtown USA.  I wish I could have been a better support for the transition. I just didn't understand. I did give him love though, perhaps that was the medicine he needed at the time.

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Green Lincoln

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Origins ~ 4 of Coins

Pretense. If America really is drowning in credit card and consumer debt I have to think a lot of what is owed must take the form of pretension.

Our worst case? We thought the Lincoln Mark IV had to be the most sleek exciting amazing wonderful car on the road. We went kicking tires one Sunday, fell into the little sale, big sale, hard sell line and walked out with a mile long green one.

This is the only case of buyers remorse I've ever had. What were we thinking? In 1973, in our early twenties? Talk about giving a fish a bicycle... I had a friend that worked at the Ford dealership, and two days later, I'd traded the Lincoln for a Ford pickup. Exactly what we needed for the lifestyle we had. I lost seven hundred dollars in the trade, probably two months combined wages. And I was happy. Not smart enough to understand what the 8% interest on the loan was costing us, that came a lot later.

It was a valuable lesson though in how embarrassing pretense really is.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Compromised

Daily Draw: Grand Etteilla Tarot ~ 6 of Cups

We can husband our health, energy, time, money, possessions until our cups absolutely run over, having built the best life and environment possible. Certainly something to be proud of.

But our personal paths are immaterial to time.  And the monumental announcements and changes charted by people in power don't mean much either. Because in an overview of time, we've already murdered our Earth and humankind along with it.

I'm reminded by this card, seeing, through the glass darkly, seems to be the focus of my mind. But. But. But. shouts my few grey cells. We've already burned up our past chances and the future will come, without humans, once again, because our climate is hopelessly compromised.

Too bad, so sad. And those cups were so pretty...